Friday, September 3, 2010
My Head in the Sand...
For the first time in four years of blogging, I simply haven't wanted to write much here for the past two weeks. It's an emotional thing.
See, I've been called to the carpet by an acquaintance from my home school co-op.
For this blog.
Specifically, for calling myself a "contemplative Christian" in my Blogger profile.
This person has written me that being a "contemplative Christian" is, in her words, "an oxymoron." The e-mail strongly implied that if I regard myself as a "contemplative," then I'm not a Christian.
I am a thin-skinned person. Very much so. I cry at e-mails rejecting the publication of my poems. I even cry at AT&T commercials.
Critique of any kind is difficult for me as I tend to beat myself up about anything and everything. And receiving what I consider to be a rather harsh e-mail questioning my faith from an acquaintance is world-rocking for me.
I know...I know...grow up, right?
But the whole thing makes me want to pull back and do my ostrich imitation--burying my head in the sand and vainly attempting to ignore the situation.
I am sooooooooo NOT a person who deals well with confrontation. To tell the truth, I run from it. Or, at least I use my cane at a much quicker pace than usual.
So, in addition to being busy-as-all-get-out with homeschooling and preparing for teaching my new courses at Class Day and Brave Writer, I have been in knots over the e-mail that still is burning a hole in my inbox.
I know. If I just deal with it, it will make me feel much better. And I will.
With head firmly entrenched in the sand,